"Happy" 2021? I don't know. I'm generally a happy person. I'm also a person who's affected by the weather, and it was garbage today. Today I'm struggling. Like, really struggling. I'm going through the motions. I'm getting shit done. But damn.
My dad's birthday is tomorrow. I miss him. My mom's here(ish), but I've gotten to see her one time since February. I miss her, too.
COVID has been isolating. Really isolating. I'm an only child. I grew up alone. And I'm used to being alone. I actually need alone-time. But there's something about being told you have to be alone that really sucks. It's made it hard to make genuine connections that you can cultivate - made that much harder for only children because we're weird. (You literally don't understand this unless you're an only child. Trust me. It's a thing.)
Do you have a bestie - besides your spouse or partner? (Brent, obvi.) I mean, human, because we all know Dexter Lord of Destruction is mine. NelSonofa is working on it. But I don't have a bestie girlfriend. I have - in the past. But things have changed - relationships and kids - and we've grown apart. I miss that. I miss having someone I can call in the middle of the night and know they'll answer because we have the same fucked up neuroses. I have really really good friends. I love them, and I know they love me. But I'm not sure if it's a circumstance thing or an only child thing.
Sometimes I feel like I'm the Single. Solitary. Soul. in this world. And I feel like I might feel less single and solitary if I knew someone else felt like this, too.
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